This is a very bad take. LLM’s, appear to be at their limit. They’re autocomplete and are only as good as their inputs. They can’t be depended on for truth. They can’t be trusted to even do math.
LLM’s work as a place to bounce things off of, but still require editorial work afterword, even when they are working their best.
LLM’s take huge amounts of power, both to make run, keep running, and to correct their output.
In general LLM’s don’t significantly reduce labor, and they are still ~very costly~.
Even the most basic assembly line multiplies someones output. The best assembly lines remove almost all human labor. Even bad assembly lines are wholesale better than individual assembly.
As long as it’s LLM, I don’t believe it will ever be “useful”. We need a different technology to make this sort of assistance useful.
I hope you have some sort of therapist to talk to, because this is… gonna take some work.
Forget the “why”. Being there and saving the life of people directly connected to you is traumatic. Full stop. PTSD? I mean, maybe not, but trauma? yes.
There’s a lot going on here, and the only reasonable response is advice. You need advisement. You also need to settle the “why”. Why the rest of the family isn’t concerned? If it’s “normal” there’s a normalization aspect that needs investigation. Why you have had to do the Heimlich on multiple family members? That speaks to it being something specific about your family. Why is it YOU who’s doing it?
Exactly none of this is normal. Yes, you are having the natural reaction to having family almost dying in front of you. You need to figure out the rest. The other symptoms will either make sense, or go away, if you settle the rest.