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Though the compromise of privacy rights and protections against unreasonable search, seizure and surveillance usually follows the terrorist and child-predator to activist and protestor pipeline.

NSA and FBI have always taken an interests in left wing activists critical of the current regime.

This is why you block the camera with a little diorama that shows a single white male viewer…frantically masturbating.

I very much appreciate the offer. Part of it is that I’ve been wailing like Cassandra about the rise of autocracy since the CIA torture thing in the aughts (and hippies older than I have been noting the rising police state since the 1960s) so I’m kinda taking CECOT and the dismantling of federal institutions personally. But then a lot of personal life stuff happened about the same time, so here we are.

I’ve got a few friends left, a rugged protocol for when I am triggered,and I am rebuilding a support network. It’s not my first rodeo, but (to mix metaphors) I’m definitely playing hard mode now.

As Blue from OSP, an early example of self-insert fanfic.

I’m in the middle of a psychotic break (since November 2024, and yes, the collapse of the US is a factor) and off and on suicide watch.

Here’s an exchange I’ve actually had (more or less, paraphrased) more than twice these last three months:

🥼📋👓🩺: In the past week, have you been having thoughts about killing yourself? (Another version is “How recently have you thoght about ending your life: a) less than a year, b) less than a month, c) less than a day, d) today.”)

🐰🎩🫖☕: Oh sure. Every day. Hourly.

🥼📋👓🩺: What!?

🐰🎩🫖☕:Yeah. For me this is Tuesday. The brain is always considering heading to check-out. I have a numerical scale of one-to-ten for suicidality the way we do pain assessments.

🥼📋👓🩺: I…see?

🐰🎩🫖☕: It’s fine! Ambient unlife stuff is at a S-3, like “shit I need to get to bed so my boss can scream at me early tomorrow. If that bus careened through this crosswalk, that problem would be so resolved.”

🥼📋👓🩺: …This is normal for you?

🐰🎩🫖☕: Routine. At S-5, I may look around for wandering death opportunities. I don’t talk to anyone about it until about S-6 and start having fantasies of getting proactive, at which point I might tell my therapist if she isn’t squeamish. (A lot of therapists are hair-trigger and will start threatening involuntary committal with any noise of suicidal ideation)

🥼📋👓🩺: Maybe you should…

🐰🎩🫖☕: It’s gotta be an S-8 or S-9 before I’m going to inconvenience a hot-line operator or crisis counslor. By then I’m looking at chemistry sets on Amazon. A fun game is trying to cross a hundred busy intersections in two hours. I’ve won so far.

🥼📋👓🩺: You can’t just…

🐰🎩🫖☕: You can’t just charge death head on. A million years of evolution will drop you before you commit. You gotta sneak up on Death. Icarus, not Heracles.

🥼📋👓🩺: < 🎩 gibbering noises >

I get to enjoy that the reverse happened, when he made mocking jokes about Islamic jihad and the promise of 72 virgins, and I got to school him about the Houri and the more general (and often pacifistic) notions of jihad as a personal quest.

(I’m not Muslim, but researched them during the war on terror in order to separate functional culture from violent movements. It’s complex and valid criticisms intermingle with harmful stereotypes, like Christianity and vampirism)

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This is possibly true. He seemed more left leaning as the mayor of San Francisco, and I didn’t realize he was actually a chameleon.

Young men who are capable of playing video games all day are likely depressed, and have a clinical problem. Our volition to be productive was demonstrated during the 2020 lockdown and the great resignation of 2021-22, in which young men (as with all other working demographics) learned:

• They felt better in a non-toxic work environment
• They couldn’t couch potato for more than a week without getting fierce cabin fever, and
• They got highly skilled when they were doing a thing they liked.

The ones who resigned from old jobs were the ones who were able to monetize their hobby enough to quit. Many more got productive, but didn’t find something in their craft for which there was a ready market.

Speaker Johnson is a fierce MAGA and conforms to the common fascist trope of never speaking in good faith. See Sartre’s antisemite quote.

With several perspectives including that crunch remains a thing in AAA game development, our ownership class and CEOs are less concerned about maximizing profits than they are being lords with a feif and peons (compulsory servitude).

Oh and death to all monarchists. Disney deaths preferred.

Look at my traitor of a governor with the monarchist tyrant.

The idea that Florida can “protect” minors by making them less safe is dangerous and dumb.

I assume this is less about protecting children as protecting the movement from children, as well as facilitating wrongdoing against children by members of the movement.

As a general rule there are no backdoors that are good guys only. In fact predators, foreign agents and industrial spies will know them sooner than their distribution to law enforcement.

Remember our oligarch masters have invested over a trillion dollars into a multimedia empire to fuck their brains in the first place using what is nothing less than mind control or brainwashing techniques.

In the old days, we regulated services that took advantage of common human bias (such as gambling). But in this era, even gambling is AOK in all fifty states (so long as it’s sports apps or lootboxes)

That 20-Minutes-Into-The-Future cyberpunk dystopia that scared Orwell and Stephenson and Gibson is here. (—1138)

The US is still supposed to regulate inciting speech, but not when it’s backed by a closet full of blue-haired lawyers.

Off topic, stock pics of Trump all seem from around his last term so when I see a recent comment he looks old and deformed like an uncanny valley monster, like his face is a melted Nixon mask.

We should use recent photos for stock Trump pics the way we did with Biden.

He’s doing a suck job of it. The things he’s gutting are pennies towards his dark-souled oligarch masters. Cutting small government projects like the NEA, PBS or like FOSS grants is only used as an appeal to fiscal responsibility conservatives that aren’t willing to cut into old-people benefits like Social Security and military sacred cows. Not because gutting tiny projects does anything useful, rather it gives the vibe that representatives are doing something.

This is an appeal to the imbicile MAGA though the tech bros might have specific FOSS projects that compete with their own commercial offerings. Not enough to cut all FOSS grants, though.

AHA! I KNEW IT! Trump, MAGA and the freedom caucus is all just a front for the robot apocalypse movement.

Trump crashes the global economy and then the robots come in saying We’ll fix everything We’ll use logic!

So far the Trump administration and the Federal government under him don’t need AI to justify stupid, globe-wrecking policy.

AI told me to do [wrongful action] is no more a valid excuse than I was just following orders. At least not to an international tribunal or a (seriously peckish) public.

They’re making a strong argument for opt-in-only regulations stacked on top of ToS simplicity regulations.

May have to wait until after the revolution, I suppose.

And then, the group that is not undesirable starts shrinking, trait by trait. We know this poem.

We live in a YAF dystopia that is way less cool than most of the storybook ones.

And while every kid’s story is their chance to veer away from the usual fate of becoming a corporate cog (laborer or soldier) in a billionaire vanity project, most will just end up stuck like Winston without his nook, or will get imprisoned or will just go homeless.

We’re pretty sure it’s the Monsanto pesticide and anyone who suggests it is hit with a litigation threat. Curiously, as we’re speed-breeding domesticated bees the wild bees are dying out faster, so as the bee population dwindles it also becomes more domesticated and less wild. I know that’s a bad thing, but I am fuzzy on the why details.

I’m a brown thumb, and plants wilt as my shadow falls on them, but if you’re a green-thumb, plant pollinators, which will help the bees.

Also plant milkweed for the monarchs.