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This does help, and thank you. In truth, I don’t even want medication, I’m middle aged and this is the brain I’m used to. Would just be nice to understand myself a little better and maybe start getting some better strategies in place.

It’s just grating that every time I ask, I’m redirected. Maybe they just think I’m pill seeking.

Goddamnit, another thing I do to cope. I keep asking my doc how to get diagnosed, I just keep getting antidepressants prescribed which do not help.

That story is immediately what came to mind.

I think I’ll go get some tacos for lunch and mull this one over…

Almost got me with this one. I’ve heard the same argument deployed unironically from some of my own family…

I really do appreciate the words and the sentiment. I would normally agree but right now my faith is still shattered. I think there are good and amazing people, who have done magical and wonderful things. I just think that small and petty tyrants are more common and more indicative of humanity as a whole. That the righteous have to look up from underneath the bootheel of those who deserve to be crushed under one themselves. Instead, those type get to run the show, and obviously always have.

This weekend has been bad mentally. I hope I can find some optimism again. I’m just so tired of expecting the worst and being proven right.

Without a doubt this is the worst part. It was an immediate and irreversible swing from being an optimist who believes in the good of people to the complete opposite. I now believe humanity is fundamentally flawed and will destroy itself.

Watched too much Star Trek as a kid I guess.

There isn’t a best, maybe a less bad but even then it’s an impossible choice. ✋wins here.

Oh, that makes it so much better…

There are so many flags right now it’s just a sea of red undulations. Done by design, so that we don’t notice the death of democracy.

Married couples often start looking alike over time.

We have two corporate parties, the status quo and the controlled opposition. They occasionally switch labels but until we get the corporate out, we will never have a real choice.

I hate going there these days. I’m not sure if it was a frog boil or what but the site now is a shadow of the one I left during the big mod exodus. It’s terrible now, so much less info, user base has devolved, riddled with ads.

I imagine if I was still there all the crap would feel normal but having left, every time I visit now and see what huge changes have been made. Every time i visit the quality of the site has tanked even more.

First, I love you for this joke. Second, I don’t want to risk pissing off Ron Swanson.

I know right. And the motherfucking cultists in my own family are telling me it’s my fault for trusting the stock market. But these same fucks have told me that’s my only option for retirement because Soc. Sec. Is a “Ponzi scheme”.

We’re setup to fail, we’re only here to produce value that can be stolen.

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ha, of course my t-deck plus just arrived today…

Yeah, I’m a fancy bricklayer these days…

My most recent job hunt has me thinking the same. I used to be a dime a dozen, and young folks were real and serious competition in the job market, but I’ve been in IT since before the .com crash and now my skills are once again becoming unique.

I’ve been raising my kids, warning them about the shit state of IT. Maybe I should have been nerding them harder.

Ok, this is what social media is for. Thanks everyone, so much good stuff in here. Glad I have similarly esoteric tastes…